My dear,
The past year has been life changing for me in many ways. I couldn’t have done it without you. I look back and am thankful for every second that has brought us closer together. I feel like I’ve won some sort of lottery…or karma has finally given me someone to enjoy my life with for everything it’s worth.
I remember meeting you for the first time and feeling so nervous that you wouldn’t like me after meeting face to face. You were such a good sport meeting my family on the first “date”. Thank you for having an open mind and giving me a chance. That night was nice… maybe a bit awkward for you! I remember kissing you and you running away thinking I was just after your… ahem… You know… I wasn’t. I was falling for you from the second I saw you and I wanted more time to talk and see you in person. Sorry for the forwardness!
It seems like the universe (woah hippy) was on our side from point A. From the first date on, things have been and continue to be easy. Our first solo date turned into cards and drinks after at the Fork. We had so much fun we did it a couple more times. I remember you looking over at me and smiling…saying, “I like you” with the prettiest smile I have ever seen. My heart dropped and I played it cool (I think I did haha). I really wanted you to like me. I fell in love with your energy the second I saw you. I didn’t know it then, but I know it now! You’re incredibly attractive to me…then AND now.
Our chats over the phone were all I craved. I would stay up for as long as you would… letting every second hang on, feeling like an eternity, while I waited for you to answer. My heart would warm when I got a response. I read back every word you sent me over and over. I had never been so needy and so heartfelt over a communication…EVER. I knew something special was brewing…at least on my end.Â
I pulled all of the strings I had to see you for as long as possible… as much as possible. I needed to be with you. Thanks for allowing me into your space. I know you were uncomfortable at first. I remember the first night sleeping in your bed…the way I smelled like you for hours after leaving. When the smell finally faded I was sad. I hoped with all my heart I could smell like that again. Share a bed… because I was sleeping on a couch. Lonely and unaware of how unhappy I really was. You woke me up to comfort and relaxation. You made me feel wanted and like a special person for the first time in as long as I can remember. I was hooked and I wanted more.
I remember being nervous to invite you to the Christmas party. When you said “wow, yes”, I was so happy for many hours…maybe days! I wanted to show you off and be together in all areas of my life. It was such a good time. I have never made out so much in my life…I hope we can beat the record over and over…at least match it!
Thanks for helping me through tough times. It was ugly. Necessary, but ugly. You saved me…and I’m eternally grateful. So grateful and thankful for you…
There is so much I can write here. And I will over time. All I know is that, YOU being in my life this year, has been inexplicably amazing. I have never loved so hard, pure, and surely. I want to be yours, and you to be mine… forever. I’m all in, sure as hell, absolutely, head over heels for you, Lisa. Thank you for showing me love and kindness everyday…I am the luckiest man in the world.
I love you,
Heath
